Have you ever wished that you didn't have this fetish?

[hugo42]

Just wanted to say that I know this forum is primarily catered to f/m and f/f carries, but I still want to give my perspective on my m/f and f/f fetish.

I'm kind of embarrassed about it to an extent. My g/f knows about my fetish, and one of my good friends "kind of" knows I love lift and carry. She allows me to videotape her being carried, but I have to walk a fine line to keep from coming off as creepy. For instance, I've always fantasized about carrying a limp woman with her arms swaying on video. When I pick her up, I tell her to go limp, and that's as far as I can take it.

I had thousands of pics of f/f on my phone, and my friend accidentally looked through my phone and discovered my cache (oops!). Luckily, she didn't really say anything negative about it. I haven't told anyone else about my fetish. I remember at one point I calculated how much I had spent on videos related to lift and carry mainly from sleeperkid and velvets. I think I spent close to $200 at the time. I just couldn't get enough of watching f/f carrying especially when there were multiple carries or ots carries involving limp limbs.

[wetten1984]

many times, but never got rid of it...

[dodge77]

I get embarrassed when I'm around bigger women and my wife. I don't think my wife knows how I love bigger/taller/stronger girls. When I'm around my 2 coworker women that are very good size I find myself slouching a little on purpose bc I like them to be even taller.

[2010xsf]

Originally Posted by dodge77

I get embarrassed when I'm around bigger women and my wife. I don't think my wife knows how I love bigger/taller/stronger girls. When I'm around my 2 coworker women that are very good size I find myself slouching a little on purpose bc I like them to be even taller.

I understand you ... what is your height and weight and that of your coworkers?

[montebrown]

Sometimes I feel like it is a curse for me. I have always been large which makes it very difficult to find a willing participant.

I have also been overweight most of my life. I am currently 6’1 and about 280 lbs. Even if I slim down, I will still be around 220. Most session girls won’t even be willing.

To make mattters worse, I prefer more petite girls or fitness types which makes it nearly impossible. My first love was Marika from SI many years ago. At that time I was just over 200lbs. I could not find anyone that would consider a session other than a few larger woman that were not that appealing to me at that time.

[furrypants]

I wish something else did it for me, which would not mark me as a freak or pervert. If I only just liked tits and ass it would be far better.

[Bbwbearhug]

The only time I wished I didn’t have it, was when it kept getting in the way of my previous relationship. It started becoming a burden because I didn’t know how to control it. After many attempts to remove it from my life, now I’ve embraced it as a unique part of myself. It’s a pain in the ass to find the right content, but I enjoy searching as much as consuming.

For those that wish to get rid of it, you can, but it really never goes away, you can quiet it down. I did nofap for close to 200 days, and I managed to quiet it down.

It’s nice to be a part of this community because we all share the same unique fetish.

[liftca]

Yes. I think about it everyday. Why I have this kind of fetish..

[shanks001]

Originally Posted by liftca

Yes. I think about it everyday. Why I have this kind of fetish..

I agree fully. Outside looking in it seems so abstract, but i guess it’s something we all have to live with

[justini]

the thing is that this fetish i very rare and not so many people understand it. It may seem weird to outsider. But i have accepted it cuz it is impossible to undo my desire